porn shoot x 2
20 april
I arrive on time, after an express pump at the gym- had to look good for the cameras. I
spent most of yesterday after work trying to find a ‘tight tee-shirt, not white’ per
request, and after many failed attempts, got one second-hand at midnight from a guy I
had just met and it wasn’t even his so who knows where it came from, but it’s going to
be in the video.
I’m nervous because this is the first shoot I’ve done for Catalina in over a year, and
I think they’re using me because one of their exclusives suggested it. We’re shooting
in the director’s apartment, which is next to some kind of half-way house for Nam vets
from what I can tell. That the rest of the street looks like something out of Legoland
makes it all the more incongruous. But then, that’s porn!
I know very little about this video except that the plot is based on a true story from
‘the exclusive’. Ok, his name’s Mike Radcliffe and you’d never know it from looking at
him but he is just the biggest sweetheart- hope I haven’t tarnished his image. I think
I am playing some kind of security guard and have no idea who my co-star will be. I
don’t even know the title, but this is all normal. Sometimes I never even receive a
copy of the video and have to wait until it’s showing at the Tom Kat.
I meet my co-star, turns out it’s Mike Vista. We did a video together a year ago- never
saw it, couldn’t tell you the name of it- that we shot for Close-Up. He’s looking as
great as ever. Radcliffe’s there too, I guess as a consultant, as we’re not shooting a
sex scene together. He later turns out to be quite an asset. Also, two gay camera men
and a straight assistant of some sort. Having straight men on the set irks me a little,
at least could they pretend to be gay and not talk about their girlfriends? I guess I
need to evolve some more- or learn to use the equipment so I can work on sets.
The shoot starts out fine, they almost always do, unless you’re with someone you know
is not into you, which has happened to me before. Can’t they at least pretend to be
aroused, and not talk about their boyfriends? I’ve found something sexy about everyone
I’ve worked with, just as I do when I’m on an escort call, and I try to focus on it.
When you’re with someone like Vista, there’s plenty to focus on.
As the hours pass, amid awkward poses and freezes for still photos, lighting changes,
and distractions like being able to see some Erin Brokovitch with a laundry basket just
a few feet away from the open window, a computer that starts playing cheesy Casio
classical Lite, cell phone interruptions- it gets harder and harder to remain hard.
This too is typical, and unfairly I totally blame myself, thus piling more pressure on
an already loaded situation (no pun intended). When you're a 'top', it comes with the
territory (ok, last pun).
I just can’t stay hard and have to keep stopping the shoot to fluff myself again, and
then it happens, one porno's hugest no-no's...
"Hey, you better get this! "I command to the camera men, who scramble to catch a
premature cum shot. It's a big one, since I've been saving up or a week, but it’s the
right thing at the wrong time- we don’t have enough fuck footage. A call is made to
Catalina, then silence. I am feeling so low, but there’s no undoing it, and at least
some of it got on tape. The make-up guy wipes my money shot off Vista’s back. I am
asked if I could get I hard again after lunch. "Sure", my mouth says, without even
bothering to consult my penis. We break for lunch.
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